eruma's

according to me

2011-04-06T18:03:00.002+07:00

i think and i do agree with my thought..

loving someone and

choosing someone to spend your lifetime with

is different.. these two things are not related...

according to me..

peace-takecare-goodluck
06april2011

Heyhoooo 2011

2011-01-23T00:40:00.001+07:00

it's been such a loooong time i haven't updated my blog... soon i will update it with sort of 'new' theme :P

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma :)

Count your blessings

2010-11-14T13:26:00.001+07:00

If I'm not mistaken I read this sentence few years ago.. "Count Your Blessings". Few weeks ago, when I was window-shopping-ing in Ion with Monica Sinaga and Uchie Wohon, I saw a book. The book is basically an empty note book with few lines as an instruction how to use the book. The book is a 'thank you' book. You suppose to write thank you notes in it. KaMon bought one that time. For me, I didn't buy it but the book has inspired me :)

I should've make my own thank you notes in my blog. So far I have Eruma on Love, Whatever and others but I don't have Eruma on Thank You - or something like that,, I'll find the suitable tittle for it later on. I feel ashamed.. After all this time with lots lots lots of blessing from God and lots lots lots beautiful, kind, good people surrounding me, I haven't expressed it in my blog. It's not that I'm not grateful or thankful, I just don't post it on my blog. But from now on I'm going to make special section on this. By being thankful, it will bring more positivity vibe in my life, that's just exactly what I need. :)

What kind of post will be on first section of 'bless' and 'thank you' ?

Just wait and see

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma

A girl - Is it really there?

2010-11-09T11:04:00.002+07:00

Love you can't see it but you can feel it. Is it really there?

A friend of mine has a boyfriend overseas. They have been dating for couple of years and only meet once a year which means they have met each other like twice..........

My other friends (actually including me :p) have a doubt. We are not saying that "there is something wrong with the boyfriend" or what but we just have a doubt in our mind.

Yet the girlfriend thinks that they love each other so freaking much and no one can separate them. Even though they are far, the girlfriend feels they are so close. (Ok, with the current technology such as Skype, Instant messenger and everything; it is make things simpler)

Yes it is true that we can not see or feel the love between them, but it just so hard to believe that it is there.

Ok, actually we have a big doubt on the boyfriend and all of us smell something fishy fishy. But apart from that, how come the girlfriend still thinks that everything is okay okay?.... Doesn't she feel something fishy too?

I don't think so.

I have been there. I was in a position of the girlfriend long time ago. It was not like my friends think there was something fishy between us, because if they felt something was wrong, they would have told me- they are my best friends, we hide nothing.

Neither do I. All that time I never felt something was wrong, all the love, lovey-dovey things, romantic stuff, Romeo and Juliet kind of love were there and I felt that - at least at that time I really really believed that all of those things were there and real.

That was like years ago, and I'm not with him anymore now.

Today, when I saw the girlfriend and her situation - I start asking myself : was it really there? I'm not referring to the girlfriend and the boyfriend, I'm referring to myself.

Erma, was it really there? What you had years ago with someone, was it really there?

If you asked me at that time, I would definitely without a doubt - Yes!

But if you ask me now, my answer would be - I don't know.

I don't know whether it was really there at that time or just my imagination or just something that I felt at that time -- or it was something that I wanted to feel with him at that time.

Creepy huh.. Just like a movie called Inception (the one with Leonardo DiCaprio and the guy from 500 days of summer). You cannot separate between what you dreamed of (or what you wanted to feel) with the reality.

It is so creepy... And love is a creepy thing. ~~~~~~~

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

9 November 2010

Below is a song from TwentyfirstNight - Mungkin. I think it kinda goes well with my post today. Enjoy :)

Procrastinating

2010-11-02T21:14:00.003+07:00

Procrastinating

is my habit - its my old habit and now it attacks again in a wrong time. I really really need to finish this as soon as possible so that I can come back home to prepare my wedding (30 days to go). I have turned my laptop on since 10 am and now 10:24 pm I have not write anything :( shame on me. I am procrastinating, twitter and facebook are the greatest procrastinate tools ever, they have helped me to procrastinate.

I keep telling myself that I need to do it and just do it (sounds like Nike ad..) but I keep procrastinating again and again... and right away after I open my Microsoft Word (at 10 something pm, I opened my mic word - at last...) suddenly I feel like talking to someone or anyone or someone (yes there is particular someone that I want to talk to..).

I feel weak..

I never need to talk to anyone before I did my assignments but now... why?

is it just another reason that I make for procrastinate further?

or is it a necessity?

Anyway, now i feel that love makes me weak. It is too fast to conclude that I am in love or what but somehow when i start to feel something for someone i feel weak. and i DO NOT like it.

I do not like this feeling and i better start writing something or anything (that's why i write this blog - at least i write something hehehe xP) and since I cannot contact him right now, i better start writing in my microsoft word - not in my blog.

Ermaaaaa just f*cking do it!!!!!

Erm, JFDI!!!

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

2 11 2010

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2010-10-26T23:10:00.001+07:00

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25oct2010
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Soulvibe - Masih

9 November 2010

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

Relocating Blog

2010-10-23T12:04:00.001+07:00

Tumblr is not bad.. hehehe xP I'm also considering making my photo portfolio... Hmmm which one is better flickr or daportfolio..

20102010

2010-10-20T20:52:00.001+07:00

".....it is always good to see something from my past as memories that i can always have :)"

*E* 20102010 - http://erm-hah.blogspot.com/

My oh My...

2010-09-30T08:58:00.002+07:00

My oh my...

My heart does not feel quite well right now.. cannot tweet it since i have promised *nomore lampautweets* ... I really thought everything is okay okay yesterday morning.. but after hearing something something from here and there, it turns out not so okay okay lah..

I remember when one of my long lost friend told me that i have to choose, it was around two years ago.

You know, sometimes the choice is not that chooseable (i know it is not a word, but you know what i mean, dont you?)

anyway,, i think i don't have to feel like this rite now.. unless i hear something something directly from him.. but he has moved on faster than me so his life must be full of love right now and i am genuinely happy for him.. i wish U love.. all the love in the world...

peace takecare and goodluck,

Erma

"for the sake of my thesis"

2010-08-27T02:14:00.004+07:00

lets make this thesis-thing more interesting...

i promise my self when i finish my research proposal i will let the person know that i'm going to get married this year..

i know i've been postponed and postponed in let him know about my wedding, it is all because sometimes i feel that i do not need to tell him but i don't know.. i just don't know..

i want to tell him, i want to invite him to my wed even though i'm not that sure whether he wants to hear or come to my wed.. or maybe he doesn't care at all...

to be honest, i do not understand about 'how to invite your ex to your wedding' -- i think i should googled or youtubed it...

ok.. lets try.....

http://www.google.com/search?client=safari&rls=en&q=how+to+invite+your+ex+to+your+wedding&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8

what i found were things related to "should you invite your ex to your wed?" ok, that's definitely won't help me.. hahaha xD

actually i have one good advice from a good friend of mine:

he said that "if you want to let him know, just let him know then - now go, take your bb and send him an email - do not think too much.."

that's a good piece of advice and at that time i thought that i should send him an email right away.. but nope... i did not send him the email.

but i will. after i finish my rm :D

previously, i think i don't need to let him know but, just now, after i saw my friendster (yap fs not facebook) page and i felt something missing from it - i change my mind.. i have to let him know.. yes i have to let U know about my wedding.

peace takecare goodluck

Erma

27082010

Love is just a reason

2010-07-28T23:58:00.008+07:00

(what I'm talking about here is love between two people - not love for the earth or whatsoever..)

When you are in my age, you will see love as a ridiculous thing.

it is no longer funny or make butterflies in your stomach fly..

it is more like a non-sense reason just to fulfill someone's ego..

When i was young, love is a funny-cute thing that can make butterflies in your stomach fly...

it gives red blush to your cheeks, sweaty hands and happy to the maxx feeling...

But now.. i see love has different excitement.

I'm not saying that love is a bad thing, it is just a reason.

Yes love is a reason for me.

Reason for someone to get what they want.

In my sole opinion, love is a commercial term. People in entertainment and advertisement industries use it to sell their products. You can count by yourself how many movies, music and advertisements inspired by love - then compare with others that are inspired by different matters. This is not bad, they are just using love to earn money. See... love has become their reason to get income.

What i see from my surrounding (probably it is different with yours),

People use love to fulfill their ego (i know its sounds weird... let me explain..)

Love suppose to be a happy situation where everybody is happy, right?

What if you "love" someone but in other hand you are hurting other person? it is definitely not a happy situation. And you refuse to let go your partner because you love her/him - even though you are fully aware that by loving your partner it will hurt somebody else. You use "love" just to fulfill your ego - to get what you want by ignoring other people's feelings.

I read somewhere that there is a theory saying that love is just a reason for human to survive in this world - which is lead to reproduction activities.

So, from what i know and learn up to now - love is just a reason. A reason that is not strong enough to build a relationship between two people. (at least that's my opinion :D)

peace-takecare-goodluck,

Erma

03082010

Moving On and Don't Look Back..

2010-06-28T19:24:00.009+07:00

and one day, i look back - once.. just once..

I do not regret it. Sometimes when you look back, you'll find something new - might be interesting might be not. It depends on how you see things.

When you are ready to move on, somehow on 'weird' way the universe will help you to prepare whatever you might face afterwards... Sure, moving on is not the easiest phase in someone's life but it is a phase that everybody must face.

Writing - good friends - music are some of many good companions in 'moving on' phase. However, the most important thing is your own mind. Many people will say that the most important thing is your own heart. But not for me.. your mind controls your heart - that is why you have your brain in your head not in your stomach :D

Yesterday, I looked back on something that I've left years ago.. and I found something.. it made me feel -idontknowwhattowrite- and somehow it was something that I'd wished to happen but yesterday it felt so not right.

Today, I realize that I am happy with my life and what is behind is just a past and whatever happen in my past should be happy too - i know this sentence is quite confusing ^__^

Now i fully understand that I have wished for someone's happiness - someone in my past - now he has got it. I am happy for U.. just like these songs - songs that I always sing for U...

Someone New

I Wish You Love

PeaceTakecareGoodluck,

Erma

28 June 2010

A Shoe

2010-05-25T21:16:00.002+07:00

A shoe

A sandal

A footgear

Barefoot

You can have all shoes in this whole world but you can only wear one when you walk.

You can love all people in this whole world but you can only pick one to spend your life with.

You can choose not to wear any shoe or sandal, yes you can choose to walk in barefoot.

I have prepared myself to walk barefoot in this land of love, since I cannot afford the shoe that I have always wanted.

Yes, I still have other shoes and sandals but they are not the one I want to walk with, I rather be barefoot.

I don't mind walking barefoot, what's the different anyway.. I walk, you walk, we walk..

One day I get a shoe. Since I have decided to be barefoot, any kind of shoes/sandals are the same to me.

The shoe is the one that I couldn't not accept, it is a gift, a present and real.

Not like my dream shoe in the past.

Somehow I just decide that I will walk in the land of love with the shoe.. No longer barefoot..

Peace Takecare Goodluck
Erma
25 May 2010

you are my reality;

2010-05-22T14:17:00.001+07:00

a gift from God.

22052010

yes you are.

05082010

Songs in my playlist lately... repeat and repeat again...

2010-05-21T15:55:00.002+07:00

You know when some people said that "if you want to know what someone feels, look at his/her playlist". I'm not really sure what i feel right know, but i'm quiet sure that i'm so in to these songs lately... and i wish i could hear these songs in my wed (even though i know these are not typical love songs that you'd hear in a wed...)

-in random order-

1. Mungkin - Twentyfirst Night

2. Masih - Soulvibe

3. Adelaide Sky - Adhitia Sofyan

4. Someone New - Eskobar feat Heather Nova

5. Mata Hati Telinga - Maliq and d'essential

6. Hanya Kau - The Adams

7. Blue Day - Endah and Rhesa

8. Reality - Adhitia Sofyan

more songs to add (maybe)....

peacetakecaregoodluck

Erma

Movies that I watched before I get Married (and i think you should too) :D

2010-05-18T01:32:00.008+07:00

in random order:

1. Hari Untuk Amanda (Indonesian Movie)

2. 500 Days of Summer

3. cin(T)a (Indonesian Movie)

peacetakecaregoodluck

Erma

18052010

Ethics in Business

2010-05-07T13:20:00.003+07:00

what is Ethics?

Ethics is the study of how people try to live their lives according to a standard of "right" or "wrong" behavior - in both how we think and behave toward others and how we would like them to think and behave toward us. - Ghillyer, A. (2010). Business Ethics: A Real World Approach. 2010. McGraw Hill: New York. Page 6.

is there any ethics in business?

I learn Business Ethics in my graduate program, but somehow I feel that there is no such thing called "ethics" in business. As far as I am aware, a corporation - with profit orientation - will do anything to gain profit and more profits in any possible way.

I do not say that all corporations with profit orientation run their business unethically. I just have not found any successful company without a lawsuit or a complaint related to business ethics.

Previously, I was working in a corporate law firm - so called "the best law firm in Indonesia for 7 years in a row". The firm is full of talented and hard-worker staffs and lawyers. They are working for more than 12 hours a day and they are feeling bad whenever they cannot come to the office. It is the corporate culture inside the firm that build their characteristics. The firm always put their clients needs as a number one priority, they will do anything to serve and give the best service to the clients. The staffs and lawyers will be available anytime no matter what, and they will do anything to make sure their clients projects are going well. No matter how much money they will spend - expenses will be charged to the client anyway, and in any possible way - literally.

Well, if we look again to the firm purpose is to give the best service to the clients - the corporate culture is inline with the purpose. It is inline in term of how the people inside the firm behave, how they do their jobs and everything - to fulfill the purpose of the firm.

Is it ethical to make their employees work for more than 12 hours a day? is it ethical to do "anything" to get the job done?

The employees are willingly to do it - mostly because of the payroll, some because of they said that they like the jobs. "anything" is need to do since in our country, in order to do something here we must be able to do "anything". - i know the last sentence is not clear, it is my intention to make in unclear ;)

Therefore "ethics" in this case can be seen from two sides; internal and external.

Internal of the firm may said that this situation is "ethics" since the employees are aware of how the firm works and willingly to cope and adjust with the corporate culture. The firm may argue that if an employee does not like the corporate culture, he/she can submit resignation letter to the firm. As for the "will do anything" part, most of business organizations in Indonesia are aware that in order to conduct business in Indonesia "anything effort" is needed.

External view may have a contrast opinion. People outside the firm may see the firm as an unethical corporation. The reasons are because they keep their employees work for more than the regular working hours and will do anything to get the job done.

I am not say that the firm is an unethical corporation or ethical corporation, since I do not have any competency to say anything related to it - paragraphs above are just a mere discussion only.

What I am trying to say here it is that many big corporations - especially, the successful corporations- always come with contrary opinions in public eyes. Take McDonalds, Wal-Mart and IKEA as examples. McD is being criticized related to the obesity rate in the society; Wal-Mart is being criticized related to their workers and employees; and IKEA is being criticized related to tax avoidance.

The point is I have not found any successful corporations without "ethics problem" while they are running their business. Therefore I come into conclusion that business is just not go well with ethics. Ethics in business is somehow only legal formality especially for public companies that care of public opinions since they are trying to get public to buy their shares. As for private companies, ethics is just a lip service thing and they could always argue that we do business to make profit not to be a good citizen..

So if you know any ethical successful companies please let me know... I would be very happy if I could find any evidence on business and ethics can go well :D

Peace TakeCare GoodLuck

Erma

7May2010

Somehow I already know...

2010-05-06T11:16:00.002+07:00

I don't know how and why, but sometimes I just know that someday if I ever decide to marry someone it is not because of love.

Eyck, don't get offended yah.. :D

It is not because I don't love him or not. It just because I am not based my decision to marry someone on love.

What is love anyway? Can someone explains to me?

That is why I decide to marry him because of greater reasons.. Greater than love.

The greater reasons are my parents and Sang Maha.

I know people might see me as a pathetic person, but I think it is no pathetic. I am being realistic..

Let me show you something.. If you want to build a house which base do you choose? Soil or Sand?

I choose Soil. Why? Because it is more solid than Sand.

If I build my house on the sand, what will happen? I may get the best beach view on my window but sand is not firm enough to hold a house.

If I build my house on the soil, I probably cannot choose my view but it will hold my house firmly.

And like people always said "love is like sand, if you hold it too tight, it will slip away"

Anyway, I can always have vacation on beaches right? :D

PeaceTakeCareGoodLuck

Erma

6may2010

what is love anyway....

2010-05-05T16:06:00.005+07:00

love is when my friends care about me.. for me that is love

thank you my dear friends... thank you for your "worries" and everything.... i love you all more than anything.... hugs....

big big PEACETAKECAREGOODLUCK for all of my friends out there...

muah :*

5may2010

Erma

My Playlist Lately

2010-04-27T20:33:00.003+07:00

in random order:

1. Masih - Soulvibe

2. Gila - Beach House

3. You Found Me - The Fray

4. A Different Feeling - Avalanches

5. Ribbons and Tie - Santamonica

6. Mata Hati Telinga - Maliq and D' Essential

7. The Way I Feel - Remy Shand

8. Buat Kamu - Syaharani

9. I Don't Know What I Can Save You From - Kings of Convenience

10. Knock You Down (Cover Version) - Cathy Nguyen and Andrew Garcia

11. Can't Say No - The Helio Sequence

12. You Don't Know Me - Ben Folds Five feat Regina Spektor

13. Jatuh Cinta itu Biasa Saja - Efek Rumah Kaca

14. Boat Behind - Kings of Convenience

15. Down River - Temper Trap

16. Anyway You Choose to Give It - The Black Ghost

17. Cinta Tak Pernah Sama - Nidji

18. Sky Holds The Sun - A Band of Bees

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma 27 April 2010

Probably you're the one that I've been looking for..

2010-04-26T23:32:00.001+07:00

If it so,, I will love you then.. :D

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

26042010

Distraction

2010-04-23T01:08:00.007+07:00

Lately, I'm easily distracted..
I'm finding it hard to focus on my study.

I'm not even know where I am right now, where I am heading to...

Everything seems weird and fall into different directions.

And the worst part is when people who suppose to be supporting are not that supporting.. it is so sad ;(

When I keep something for myself, it means that I am not ready to share it with the world,, when the time come I will tell, please understand.. Friends suppose to understand each other, right?

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
23042010

The truth are...

2010-04-20T01:55:00.003+07:00

The truth are....

my heart cannot bear another heartache

i won't have the courage to leave a person that i love, again..

i wish i don't need to leave him, like i left U before.

i hope i don't need to choose.

i won't choose this time.

Gosh, it is just too good to be true...

this is definitely the reasons why i am afraid of love - i am afraid that i need to leave someone that i love, again..

PeaceTakeCareGoodLuck

Erma

20042010

Erma :

2010-04-18T13:44:00.003+07:00

People might see me as an inconsistent person, the truth is I am just being different - I think in different ways - I am Me. - Erma 18042010

Let God Decides

2010-04-15T12:18:00.004+07:00

I'm not planning to fly tomorrow, but God gives me wings today, thus God knows tomorrow is the best time for me to fly :D -Erma

God Knows

2010-04-09T01:07:00.005+07:00

Some people may think that what we do is something ridiculous while others may think it is destiny.

I really do not know what is in for me in the future. Whether it will be: forever or temporary; right or wrong; happy or sad; or.. or.. or..

What I understand is God have sent someone to me for a reason. For sake of the reason, I try. Everything is worth trying after all.. (Monica Sinaga, one of my best friends, once told me that there is nothing that is not worth trying..)

I or should I say WE (me and the someone).. We might have a plan for our future.. Then again, no one knows what future brings. We can try but God decides.

I try. I do try - don't ask me why and how, I pray and I try. It works - and you guys should try to pray and try too :D I know there is no guarantee on something that might come but if you pray and try, there is always something in whatever that may come to you...

I think God knows the reasons behind your impulsive action and my random reaction.

Maybe the action and reaction are not that impulsive and random after all...

Peace Takecare Goodluck

9apr10

Erma

:) ♥

2010-04-08T18:07:00.001+07:00

"you won't find happiness if you always look to other people - happiness is inside your own heart" :) ♥ -Erma

This is weird.... Really WEIRD... as in W E I R D

2010-04-05T11:34:00.002+07:00

GOD's WAY is something that i will never ever understand.

proposal

2010-03-30T02:18:00.006+07:00

this is weird really really weird...

what if someone - who is not your boyfriend - who never has love history with you ... propose you to marry him..

and he is just not asking for you to be his girlfriend but to be his lifetime partner...

it so freaking weird..

I have several male friends, who have girlfriends for years, and have not propose their girlfriends,, because of many reasons.. from the cheesy one to the fundamental one..

and now.. he is like someone from your high school, who is barely know you and now ask you to marry him.. it is so freaking crazy,,

it is my third time i heard a man proposes to me..

the answer was clear when someone, who i love but i cannot have, proposed me...

the answer was clear when a drunk man, who has a girlfriend, proposed me...

and the answer is not really clear when a man, who come after i pray to God, propose me... and yet he is very sure on his decision to spend his lifetime with me in the world and the afterlife a.k.a dunia akhirat..

...

this is so weird, i am just about to finish my previous blog on marriage, and suddenly a proposal pops up.. so crazy huh...

and yes, he has curly hair and previously he had a girlfriend from different religion.. ~ it is almost the criteria.. so that he will understand what i am going through...

i don't know what to do... looking for a husband is definitely not one of my plans for this week -_-

and i actually just about to write about two fairies in my world that took me to concerts that open my eyes and not to be lampau too long and how those concerts gave me signs.. thanks to Monica Sinaga and Andina Chaniago,,

i still remember when Monica Sinaga said "everything is worth trying" - "there is nothing that is not worth trying"

and i said to myself "is it worth trying? - even though it has a risk... a risk that he could be the one who will become my husband..."

fukkk it is so weird and my family and his family have made it so idontknowwhattowrite -_-

Oooo thou.. why thou have to make it harder with your persistence???????? why?!

are you sure?? really??

i never let a man pick me up and take me anywhere before... because i can do it myself and i dont know why i let you to do that.. -_-

and you just say lightly that it is God's hand that bring us together... i am speechless..

let see how far will you go... hmmmm... thank you for the red rose........

*i wish this was only a dream, i'll wake up and everything never happen*

Dear Erma

2010-03-26T00:34:00.005+07:00

Dear Erma,

i think you have chosen the right decision by doing this...

Can you imagine if... if.. if...

you have to get use to be alone (which you have done)... rather than used to have him but not forever..

it is easier to love someone rather than let him go..

so this is the right decision..

you don't want to swim in the utopia sea, do you? it's just like a beautiful ocean without a beach... you will not get to the sandy beach... just floating around and be happy until the ship of reality hits you - right in your forehead.... (erma 26032010)

Peace Takecare Goodluck

Erma

need to write more haha!

2010-03-22T04:35:00.003+07:00

you know what... i hate when love drifts me away from: (i) someone who i used to love or (ii) someone who used to love me....

don't like it =_=

Peace Takecare Goodluck

Erma

22March 2010

I just need to write something

2010-03-22T04:26:00.006+07:00

My friends said that

"Erma lo lampau nya kelamaan deh lebay...."

"Jangan terlalu dipikirinlah Ma, lo seneng-seneng aja "

"masa sih lo ga pernah suka sama orang gitu..."

and they are right...

yap i think saya lampau terlalu lama... a way too long...

dan saya pun mengakuinya kalau saya masih lampau

-__-

i admit it... though it is not liberated but it is better... i am tired of my own self denial.. yes i am still lampau but i am planning to get over it as soon as possible, which is i don't know when... hahaha xD we'll see and i am keep on trying :D

he will never belong to me and i will never belong to him again - anyways...

Peace TakeCare GoodLuck

Erma

22March2010 - Happy Bday Neng Yiyie :)

Kings of Convenience - LIVE - Mosaic 2010 - 19 March 2010

2010-03-20T22:47:00.001+07:00

Eirik Glambek Boe and Erlend Oye

KoC performance last night in Esplanade was awesome. Esplanade concert hall and audiences have supported their performance, great quality of sound and great ambiences. Kamon said that KoC's performance was Effortlessly Beautiful... and i am agree with her :D

Last night was my second time watching their live concerts, and so far last night performance was the best... :D Thank you Ka Monik for taking me there... huhuyyy... lopyu hugs*

KoC dedicated their last song "Homesick" for Indonesian in Singapore :D wwoohooooo.......... I hope their performance in Jakarta next saturday will as great as their performance in Singapore. Below is their playlist in Esplanade last night:

1. My Ship isn't Pretty

2. 24-25

3. Me in You

4. I Don't Know What I Can Save You From

5. Little Kids

6. Cayman Island

7. Renegade

8. Erlend Oye solo performance :) -he is the one with curly hair and cute face :D he reminds me of someone hihihi...

9. Second to Numb

10. Mrs Cold - Kamon <3

11. Peacetime Resistance

12. Rule My World

13. Misread

14. Boat Behind - My fave <3

15. Singing Softly to Me

16. I'd Rather Dance With You

17. Homesick - "dedicated to Indonesian in Singapore :D"

Effortlessly Beautiful :D

Kings of Convenience - LIVE - Mosaic 2010 - I took it from my mobile :)

"Boat Behind"

So we meet again
after several years
several years of separation
moving on
moving around

Did we spend this time chasing the other's tail?
Singing
Ohohohoh, I could never belong to you
Ohohohoh, I could never belong to you

Winter and spring
Summer and fall
You're the wind surfer crossing the ocean and the boat behind
Skiffle and rag, shuffle and waltz
You're the up tip toe ballerina in the chorus line:
Singing
Ohohohoh, I could never belong to you
Ohohohoh, I could never belong to you

River and sea, picking up salt
Through the air there's a fluffly cloud falling down as rain
Ohohohoh, I could never belong to you
Ohohohoh, I could never belong to you - oohooh
I could never belong to you -ooh ooh
I could never belong to you -ooh ooh

source: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/kingsofconvenience/boatbehind.html

http://www.facebook.com/notes/erma-herpadma/kings-of-convenience-live-mosaic-2010-19-march-2010/389745814600

Pernikahan

2010-03-16T22:19:00.004+07:00

Pernikahan...

hahaha xD -_- jadi ketawa sendiri nih bacanya... i dont think it is such a good topic for me,, so not suitable for me to write something re. marriage... hahaha xD

anyways... i have promised my self that i would write something on this topic, whenever i have time... so here it is...

It is all started like in 2 months ago,,, hmmm i guess.. when i was turning 25 years -(-_-) so old huh'- and everybody started ask about marriage..

cannot write toooo sleeepyyy.. setelah 2 hari begadang tidak tidur...... akan dilanjutkan...

Heart Button

2010-03-14T23:06:00.003+07:00

Tonight I can't study..

My brain is occupied..

Something in running back and forth in my mind..

People said that a girl can do multitasking..

But not for this time..

I can't study while having * inside my mind.. You are suppose to be in my heart, no no you are not suppose to be anywhere in me..

Ooo why I'm so stupid -_- I wish I was heartless and feel-less, so I won't feel anything and I can study for tomorrow exam... It's been years since my last written exam.. And I can't study tonight -__-..... So stupid me, let my heart feel something in a wrong time..

Is there any button to stop a heart from doing its function?

Tell me please... Asap.. -_-

Peace TakeCare GoodLuck
Erma
15March201o

Love is a Problem between Two Parties

2010-03-12T00:24:00.004+07:00

That is why they need to get together to resolve the problem.

Sometimes they need forever.. sometimes they need a month, a year only.. or more.

But when they get together they are adding more problems, it will take more time to resolve it.

and they don't mind...

complicated huh... -_- for me it is complicated.. and i don't like complicated things.. -_-..

not good huh? dunno... need to get back on my ass-ignment.. profit-people-planet, the triple bottom line, strategic decision, sustainability issues, bla bla bla...

PeaceTakecareGoodLuck

Erma

12 March 2010

Perbedaan tetap Perbedaan

2010-03-08T22:43:00.005+07:00

Perbedaan tetap Perbedaan

setuju?

Mencintai dan Hasrat untuk Memiliki itu berbeda

setuju?

Mencintai tidak sama dengan Hasrat untuk Memiliki

setuju?

Hasrat untuk Memiliki tidak sama dengan Mencintai

setuju?

Hasrat untuk Memiliki berbeda dengan Mencintai

setuju?

Mencintai berbeda dengan Hasrat untuk Memiliki

setuju?

Tidak Mencintai berbeda dengan Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki

setuju?

Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki berbeda dengan Tidak Mencintai

setuju?

Bisa saja:

1. Mencintai dan Berhasrat untuk Memiliki; atau

2. Tidak Mencintai dan Berhasrat untuk Memiliki; atau

3. Tidak Mencintai dan Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki; atau

4. Mencintai dan Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki.

Jadi:

1. Mencintai bukan berarti Berhasrat untuk Memiliki; atau

2. Mencintai bukan berarti juga Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki; atau

3. Tidak Mencintai bukan berarti Berhasrat untuk Memiliki; atau

4. Tidak Mencintai bukan berarti Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki.

Kesimpulannya:

Mencintai berbeda dengan Hasrat untuk Memiliki.

Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki berbeda dengan Tidak Mencintai.

Do you get the point?

Perbedaan tetap perbedaan, Mencintai berbeda dengan Hasrat untuk Memiliki.. Tidak Berhasrat untuk Memiliki berbeda dengan Tidak Mencintai karena bisa saja Mencintai tetapi Tidak berhasrat untuk Memiliki dan itu bukan berarti Tidak Mencintai.

... terinspirasi dari Theatre "Maha Brata" - Indonesian Art Festival, March 6th 2010.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

08032010

This is weird.. really really weird...

2010-03-02T18:44:00.002+07:00

last night i dreamt i was in an arrange marriage with someone namely Erlangga H Alfadila born in February 7th. he likes photography and has straight hair. i didn't meet him in my dream so i didn't know his face clearly- it was an arrange marriage after all so i'm not supposed to meet him anyway...

i felt really strange-weird-idontknowwhatthefuuk when i woke up this morning. i told one of my best friend about the dream and she said that "why don't you look up that name in FB"

and you know what -- there is no Erlangga H Alfadila in facebook or google (yap, i tried google too) but there is Erlangga Alfadila... even though his birthday is in Oct still I feel weirdddd...

-_-

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

2 March 2010

Greeting from Nongsa Beach - TURI BEACH

2010-03-02T17:26:00.003+07:00

I went to Nongsa Beach (the beach name is TURI BEACH, Nongsa is the hotel name actually hehehe xP), Batam - Indonesia last weekend. The beach is very beautiful, good for water-sports, snorkeling and taking pictures - very beautiful and serene...

Too bad that there was some of oil spills in the beach and the sea (i'll show you the oil spills next time).

My skin got darker and I got some scratched from coral reefs but I don't mind :D as long as I could see cute little fishes and take beautiful pictures :D (you could see some of my pics in my fb).

PeaceTakecareGoodluck - Erma - 2 March 2010

My Playlist Lately

2010-02-25T23:07:00.003+07:00

in random order:

Brick - Ben Folds Five

Without You - Empire of The Sun

I'll Leave My Heart Behind - Caroline

Everybody Knows - John Legend

Its Gonna Rain - Bonnie Pink

I Still Care For You - Ray LaMontagne

The Most Beautiful Girl (In The Room) - Flight of The Concord

Separated - Usher

So You Can Cry - Ne-Yo

Someone New - Eskobar feat Heather Nova

Something About Us - Daft Punk

Takkan Terganti - Kahitna

Walk Away - Franz Ferdinand

Details in the Fabrics - Jason Mraz

Ever Fallen in Love - Nouvelle Vague

Grievous - Doplers

I Wish You Love - Michael Buble

I'm Gonna Find Another You - John Mayer

Love Will Tear Us Apart - Jose Gonzalez

PeaceTakeCareGoodLuck Erma 26 February 2010

a smartass lil' girl teaches her Romo Swiwi (Romo : Guru - Swiwi : Wings))

2010-02-21T23:59:00.005+07:00

Romo, i think there are several things that we need to accept as it is...

1. Family

2. Past Memories

3. Ourself..

hmmm no no Romo, i think i'm wrong... we can change ourself if we have will. but we cannot change our family and past memories.

since we can't change it, i think we have to accept it as it is.. that's my Papi told me :D

MiPapi : "Nduk, tidak semua hal bisa sesuai dengan keinginan kita.. kalau di dunia ini ada hal yang tidak sesuai dengan keinginan kita dan hal itu tidak bisa dirubah, yang kita yang menyesuaikan"

MyDad: "My daughter, not everything will work as we wanted, if there is something that not worked as we want and it can not be changed, we must adapt with it"

So Romo... Past memories are definitely something that cannot be changed, no matter what.. Our memory is something that we cannot set according to what we want.. Memory cannot be erased or changed.. it records what happen in the past... what can we do with our past? only remember it and keep it in our memory...

since it cannot be changed.. i think we just need to accept our past memories as it is.. it could be happy memories or sad memories... a memory that we want to keep or maybe a memory that we wish we could delete...

but again, we cannot delete or erase our memories... you know, sometimes i wish i could go to Dr. Howard Mierzwiak to get removal for my unwanted memories hehehe xP

Romo, i think its better for you (and me of course) to accept our past memories as it is. if there is something that we cannot forget, probably that "something" is something that we must not forget..

Frankly, i don't know what i just write, hahaha xD -- i'm still struggling to make peace with some of my past memories..

Romo, maybe there is someone that we need to keep in our memory for the rest of our life.. and no matter how hard we try to erase her/him, she/he will remain in our memory and maybe our heart too.. it just worked like that and cannot be changed...

Make peace with your past lah Romo... Jalani yang baik dengan Mbakyu.. Punya memori kan bukan berarti tidak sayang sama Mbakyu kan... :D itu yang penting.. sayangnya ke Mbakyu itu lhoooo..

Kalo kata Slank mah "Terlalu Manis Untuk Dilupakan"

hahahaha xD

Romo,, maafkan gadis kecil yang sok tahu ini yap yap yap Peace //-_-\\

Peace TakeCare GoodLuck

Erma

22022010

Conversation at dawn

2010-02-20T04:18:00.004+07:00

what kind of conversation two girls would have at dawn? they are 19 and 25...

not gossip, not shopping, not food, not love, not what you think...

we talked about what happened on Sept 30, years ago in our country; Indonesia.

we talked about what happened in 1998 in Indonesia.

we talked about a cruelty that lead into traumatizing experiences. cruelty that caused by "certain interest" that lead into racism.

"certain interest" that use "religion" and "justice" as reasons to do such anarchy actions.

in my opinion, religion and justice are never ever allow anarchy actions. religion and justice are lead into one thing in people's life - peaceful life for all. certain interest is just a interest for certain people not everybody.

is there any price tag for a interest? is it worth to destroy someone's life just to gain "certain interest"? why would groups of people do such bad things just to help "certain people" gain "certain interest"? is it because of the usage of "religion" and "justice"? - don't they (groups of people) know that religion has taught us to think - read, learn and think.. not just do what other people said to us.. we need to read - to learn - and to think.

Dear Groups of People who like to do anarchy actions for the sake of "religion" and "justice",

Please read, learn and think before you do something. Is it true that religion had taught us to do bad things to other people? to punish other people? is it true that justice had gave us right to do bad things to other people? to punish other people?

I don't think so.

We are not God. We are people. Me, you, they are people. People are not suppose to act like God. God may have right to punish people but not me, you or they. Please don't act as if you are God, you are just a human - flesh and blood.

Kind regards,

Erma

Peace-TakeCare-Goodluck for all :)

I leave My Heart Behind

2010-02-16T19:39:00.000+07:00

I take the consequences with me.

Numb and tears are welcome.

What did I do?

Nothing, I just leave my heart behind.

I will take my heart back someday.

When I am ready to feel again.

When someone give it back to me.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

How to Make a Fur Rug

2010-02-13T23:58:00.001+07:00

How to Make a Fur Rug

No sew! and its cheaper than the real fur -_-.. No animal harmed :)

Please Prepare:

1. Transparent Tape

2. Double Tape

3. Furry Fabric

4. Scissor

Steps:

1. Cut the Furry Fabric as you like it :) - square, round, triangle, rabbit shape, heart shape, etc.

2. Turn the fabric upside down - tape the edge with the transparent tape.

3. Put double tape on the top of the transparent tape.

4. Fold the edge of the fabric until it cover the double tape.

5. Turn the fabric to the right position.

6. Voila... it's a rug now :)

Peace Take Care Good Luck,

Erma..

...nothing

2010-02-11T20:26:00.001+07:00

everything start with nothing and everything end with nothing

Peace Takecare Goodluck

Erma

110210

sometimes, a girl got to do what she needs to do

2010-02-04T23:12:00.003+07:00

sometimes,

a girl have to do what she needs to do. even if it is hurt her heart, or torn her deepest feeling.

she needs to take a decision, whether it is right or wrong in other eyes.

you know,

there is no right or wrong on her decision. it is not a judgement after all. it is just a step she needs to make in order to prevent her heart from more severe damages.

and,

i am very proud of girls who can take the step ahead. it needs more than courage. it needs 'something'. 'something' that not everyone dare to bare. it is the courage to hurt herself.

sometimes,

when a girl take the step, it hurts herself. not everyone dare to bare the consequences. and not everyone could understand the step she takes.

but that is ok.

she has made her path and bare the risk. that is life. her life. her heart. her risk. after all, she continues her life.

it just the preventive act that she needs to do, for herself and maybe others.

i'm so proud of you girl.

peace.takecare.goodluck

Erma

4feb10

i sit here

2010-02-03T20:54:00.001+07:00

I sit near a rocky waterfalls with big bubbles on top of the waterfalls.

The big bubbles are big white sparkly bubbles and orange bubbles.

From here I can see my box where I live. It looks small and square.

I like staying in this floating land. So not plain and warm.

I have my green drink in a white cup and green straw in my left side.

And I have my window in front of me. A window to other places that I can bring anywhere. You know what, I can see my own face in my window. :D

I like being here right now. Even though I have something to do that I don't really understand but that's ok.. :D

It is about enjoying life anyway.. I don't want to worry for tomorrow, I just want to have this time for me not for worry.

I hope all of you will be happy with whatever you do right now ;)

Cheers
:D

PeaceTakeCareGoodLuck
Erma
1Feb2010

is it written in all over my face?

2010-01-31T01:34:00.003+07:00

can you guys see what is written in my forehead?

is it that obvious?

they must have been crazy.. hahaha xD

who is the crazy one? me or them?

people who see the words on my forehead or the one who owns the forehead who cannot see what is written in her forehead?

most of my friends, especially my male friends, can see the words.. i can't...

since most of my male friends can see it, probably other males out there see it too...

oooooooouch.. my bad :(

i never intend to put that words in my forehead... :(

maybe it is the reason why........................................ hahaha xD

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~nevermind lahhhh~~~

Peace TakeCare GoodLuck

Erma

31 Jan 2010

The Tree – a Leaf and a Fruit

2010-01-29T00:30:00.004+07:00

The Tree – a Leaf and a Fruit

A Leaf and a Fruit grow together in the Tree.

Years gone by, they grow side-by-side, share laughs and tears.

Feel summer breeze, cold winter, spring joy and windy autumn together.

One day the leaf has become thick and the fruit has ripe.

It is the time for them to go to separate ways.

The leaf will go with the strong wind to the north,

The fruit will go down to the south.

Spring has come again; she comes to pick the ripe fruit from the tree.

Three months after the fruit left the leaf,

windy autumn comes to bring the leaf to the north.

In the next cold winter, the tree whisper softly that only his heart can hear

“I will never ever forget the leaf and the fruit, they will always be parts of me.”

The leaf has landed in big beautiful green forest; the leaf starts its new life.

A beginning that his past is a past and today is a new day.

The fruit and the tree are only memories.

The ripe fruit has prepared to turn into something sweet somewhere in the south.

The leaf and the tree are always in her mind, something that she just cannot forget.

PeaceTakeCareGoodLuck

Erma

29jan2010

Expensive and Cheap

2010-01-20T00:13:00.003+07:00

Something can be too expensive but can be so cheap. There are certain things you cannot buy and there are certain things that you can buy with lots of cash.

A place to stay is definitely a thing that you can buy. But warm hearts of your neighbors are things that you cannot buy.

A place to sleep is definitely a thing that you can buy. But you cannot buy a peaceful sleep.

A place to eat is definitely a thing that you can find to buy some food. But a great meal with sincere people around you is other thing that you cannot buy.

So when people say to me that "hey I think you pay too expensive for that stuff" I just need to remember that there are certain things that I cannot buy with money. It is beyond money, it is priceless. If it is a priceless stuff, it is definitely a thing that you cannot judge by its price. And when you buy priceless things, it is just felt so cheap because it is something that actually cannot be paid by anything under the sun.

Friends are priceless.

Surprise Birthday Party from your Friends is priceless.

It is something that money cannot buy.

Priceless.

Thank you for everything my precious friends.. :D

PeaceTakeCareGoodLuck

Erma

20 January 2010

The Adventure of a Girl with a Short Bang

2010-01-17T22:32:00.007+07:00

She wishes for an adventure..

She wears her flying suit and go to the court. She chooses the best flying device there and start the engine.

She starts her adventure.

Big blue ballon tied up in a black and orange strips engine, that is the device.. the device that carry her to start her new adventure..

Can you see the bright light in the sky?

that could be her.

PeaceTakeCareGoodluck

Erma

isn't it weird

2010-01-12T22:31:00.003+07:00

isn't it weird when you feel that something is just right - just like you want it to be..

it scares you when everything seems right isn't it?

you feel excited, happy and curious at the same time...

what will happen next? what should i do after this?

i once heard a wiseman says that "life for today"...

seize what you have in life right now, always be grateful.

I don't know what will happen in my next chapter of life. No one knows what will happen next. No one knows what an ocean will bring tomorrow.

I'll try not to worry too much for tomorrow.. I am grateful with what I have right know and I think everyone should be grateful that we still have today to enjoy and hopes for tomorrow :)

Alhamdulillah :)

Peace Take Care Good Luck

Erma

12 Jan 10

A (last) letter for U

2009-12-24T10:26:00.003+07:00

Dear U,

I just want U to know that if I feel sad, it is my fault.. I am not supposed to expect U to have feeling for me always..

So if right now or someday in the future U share your feeling with someone U love and love U too, I should be happy for U.

I have tried many ways to get over U. Distance and boyfriends were not work well. Only one near death experience that works to drive me to get over U (and I don't have plan to experience it again). But somehow I always fall back into your gravity. A thing that U have created unconsciously that somehow tied my heart. It is not your fault, I let my heart to be tied.

To be honest, not hearing your voice was not working either... I still let my heart close and tied to U..

After 10 years I let my heart tied to U, now I have to let U go, be happy with whatever U do and not bother U anymore. It won't be easy for me but I am doing it now (not "I will try"--like I used to do for these past years--).

I apologize for things I have done, like hating U because of someone that I don't even know --but I am not really hate U, U know I cannot hate U-- and bothering U for this past year.

I am sorry if I ever hurt U --I never meant to hurt U--

I am sorry if I ever menyusahkan hidupmu selama ini.

I am sorry I cannot be the one.

I am sorry I cannot choose U.

So this is it, after a year I stopped hearing your voice I let U go now.

I really hope that U can find someone U love and love U too, get married and have a good family :)

Take a good care of yourself, be happy with everything U do, don't forget to eat regularly, don't drink coffee too much (any kind of coffee including yang kamu suka yang pait banget itu hehehe xP) and jangan lupa minum air putih setiap hari.

I also hope we can be friends again someday. So please let me know (or not) when U are ready But if it doesn't happen, it is okay. As long as U are happy, I will be happy for U. I wish both of us will be happy in our own ways.

...For U your own way and for me mine...

Ps. I have a picture of you in my facebook, our friend tag me in it. I have not remove the tag, it is actually fine by me. If U feel that it bothers U, U can always untag it. I haven't changed my fb email and password. U know how to access it, right.

See U - I don't know when..

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
****
Erma
200809

... I know there is no guarantee that I will send it to U or U will read this letter --since as far as I remember U told me not to send him anything-- But as I have mentioned in my previous blog "she changes her nails' colors" I just need to write this letter. So U don't have to read it, I'm the one who need to write it down,, hehehe xP Even though U do not read this letter I will always pray for his happiness, always...

...Always like I always do...

...

Till we meet again, someday somewhere..

If we meet again someday somewhere before 22082043 maybe that time is the right time for us to meet again.

When the right time come, I believe both of us are ready to cope with our feelings and be friends or not.

Whatever that is, I will always pray for your happiness and your life.

Peace, take care and good luck.

241209
Merry Christmas to U

...

Wrote in 200809
Posted in 241209
Erma

This is weird

2009-12-22T02:28:00.003+07:00

Just today, like two hours ago, I found someone facebook page and the weird part is once I browsed his page I feel that "if I were a boy I would like to be him" somehow I feel we have common resemblance (at least based on his pictures on his page).

Isn't that weird? How many times in your life you feel something like this? --this is not love for sure--

Isn't that weird? Maybe I'm not that rare after all.. I used to think that there is no human being like what I have in my mind. And voilaaa yes today I know that someone is exist and alive.

Now I know and fully aware that there are soooo many kind of people in this round big world.

Maybe there is a chance or at least a small slight chance for me to find what I have been looking for..

I crossed my finger :)

Ps: I don't even know the guy from facebook, he is even not in my friend list. Maybe we can be friends someday. Hehehe xP

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Eruma
22122009
Happy Mother's Day Mom!

Resolution

2009-12-18T01:40:00.003+07:00

Happy Islamic New Year..

For some people in Indonesia, today is the right time to wash their keris (traditional sword in Indonesia).

For me, today is a step ahead to the future.

I have lots and lots resolutions for the upcoming year. One of them that I really need to write down in here is -- I want to make my own blog full with pictures that I've taken so far. The main reason is to remind myself to create this blog. I must spare my time to do this.. (OMG.. What kind of jobless people who need to spare time.. Lol:D)

Ok, first thing first.. I will need a name for the address.. Hmmm...I'll figure it out soon.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Eruma
1 Suro 2009

Preventive Measures in Relationship

2009-11-29T02:22:00.003+07:00

I always say to all my friends how important preventive measures is.

Love -or "something" related to heart- is not easy to control. It can be fun and dangerous at the same time.

That is why we need preventive measures in a relationship.

We will need preventive measures right from the start.

1. Do not overthink/exaggerate. (or in bahasa "jangan lebay").
~when we get closed to someone, we tend to exaggerate something. Even if the thing is really special never think it is special.~

2. Do not focus only in one person.
~never put too much attention and affection into one person only, you will become obbsessed. Find other person/stuff (does not have to be other fling, it can be your friends, families or hobbies).~

-USE THIRD METHOD IN SPECIAL CASES ONLY-

3. Do not fall in love.
~use this method in special cases ONLY. Example: if you get closed to someone that you cannot have (somebody else's partner, etc)~

These preventive measures are based on researches. Easy to write down but not easy to be done.

---------SIDE EFFECT----------

I have tried these preventive measures. They are come with a side effect. The side effect is you might lose a chance to know somebody in an intimacy relationship.

But it is okay for me since I have broken my heart once and I do not want it to happen again. So I will be more carefull this time. ~the truth is I am not ready for a relationshit oooops relationship~ hehehe xP

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
291109

Hey U, Today is the right time to call your best friend.

2009-11-25T22:59:00.002+07:00

Hey U,

(Yes - this is another post for U)

I think U should call your best friend. He is one of your best friends since junior high (if I am not mistaken) and U are the one who created his nickname (I know this info from him just today).

I do not know whether U have heard about the news or not but I think he really needs your support right now and you should contact him. As far as I know he hasn't changed his YM or his cell phone number.

I know I'm not supposed to send U anything but U can't forbid me to post in my own blog right? Anyway I really need U to contact him and I don't know any other way to tell U. But if U have contacted him, thank you then..

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
251109

Ilmu Sang Maha

2009-11-25T00:33:00.003+07:00

Hari ini saya pergi sebuah pameran poto oleh salah satu potografer handal di Indonesia Pak Fendi Siregar.

Ada sebuah poto yang sangat memukau saya. Poto laut yang diambil dari atas dengan langit biru, ombak menggulung indah, kapal-kapal berwarna-warni dan orang-orang berkerumun di bibir pantai dengan payung yang juga berwarna-warni.

Di bawah poto itu terdapat sebuah wacana yang kurang lebih saya menangkapnya seperti ini "Ilmu Allah itu diibaratkan sebagai lautan, sebanyak apapun sampah dan kapal yang ada di laut, tidak akan pernah penuh". Kapal-kapal itu adalah manusia-manusia.

Gambaran yang sangat mengena dengan wacana yang sangat sesuai.

Membuat saya jadi tersadar. Ilmu Sang Maha itu sangat besar diibaratkan sebagai lautan luas. Kapal secanggih apapun tidak akan bisa menaklukan luasnya samudera. Sepintar apapun pemikiran manusia, tidak akan ada yang melebihi ilmu Sang Maha.

Dalam kehidupan, manusia selalu bertanya kenapa begini kenapa begitu, manusia bertanya karena tidak tahu. Manusia tidak tahu karena kurang ilmu. Mungkin memang ada beberapa hal yang tidak dapat dicapai oleh ilmu manusia cuma Sang Maha yang tahu jawabnya.

Baiknya tidak usah berfikir menjadi Tuhan, karena ilmu manusia tidak akan pernah melebihi ilmu Sang Maha. Jikalau ada hal-hal yang masih misteri, mungkin memang yang terbaik untuk manusia adalah tidak mengetahui hal tersebut. Biarlah hanya Sang Maha yang tahu.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
251109

a paper that i found in my sewing box

2009-11-19T12:18:00.001+07:00

How to forget the feeling that you feel to someone that you cannot have.

2009-11-13T23:43:00.002+07:00

How?

1. Find new activities.

New stuffs can distract your mind from focusing to your feeling. I have tried and it really works.

2. Do sports.

When you are running or swimming or jumping, your heart will beats faster and you will feel pumping. You will definitely feel another feelings other that the feeling you try to forget. I have tried and it works.

3. Travels.

New places will bring new ambiances. It is good to escape from the usual places that remind you of the feeling. I have tried and it works well under certain conditions.

4. Go to crowded places.

Low lights and lots of people will make you feel something, either good or bad. Feel other feelings is always good. I have tried and it works.

5. Do something with your hand and eye.

Drawing, writing, painting, taking pictures and other activities require hand and eye coordination is good to make your mind working and abandon the feeling. I have tried and it works.

6. Do the chorus.

Wash the dirty clothes, do the dishes, mop the floors, clean the trash cans, including clean your room are good for you, your heart and your health. Throwing away unused stuffs and cleaning something make you feel good. I have tried and it works.

7. Spend more time with your family and relatives.

Play with your little nieces and nephew. Have a chat with your parents and listen to the elders' stories. It is good to share something with them. Make them happy is good for your mind and heart. I have tried and it works.

8. Do something that you always want to do.

Maybe you always think it is too late to try something that you always want to do. Now is the right time. Don't be shy to join a magic trick class or an acting class or other classes. Do it now and it is not too late. It is never too late to do something that you want plus it can help your heart. I have tried, not easy at first but it works.

9. Involve in charity programs.

Help others in need. It is not only giving money in a big amount. You can bake a cake and share it with a homeless or give an old dress to someone in need. Give attention to other people feelings will definitely help you since it will make you realize that there is a greater feeling than the feeling that you try to forget. I have tried and it works all the time.

10. Going out with your friends.

Friends are fairies on earth. They always know how to cheer you up and to provide a shoulder to cry on. They are the only group of people who are willingly to listen to your stories again and again and again. By meeting them only, it can make you and your heart feel much better instantly. I have tried and it works all the time.

These above mentioned points are based on my personal researches so far. Hopefully I can add more points (I think I could add 2 more, hehehe xP) excluding points related to "meeting a new man/woman" and "alcohol and drugs".

Do you have any suggestion?

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
Friday 131109

I M U - I

2009-11-08T23:52:00.002+07:00

I know I'm not suppose to tell U how I feel right now. Not because I don't want U to know how I feel about U. Not because U don't want to know how I feel about U. I know that U probably don't want to hear anything from me. And I will be lie, if I said I wish U didn't read this post.

I miss U

I don't want anything from U. I just need to say it (or write it down). I don't care if U don't miss me. I don't care with what she say about U. I don't know her, I don't even know her name. I've known U for almost 10 years I choose to believe in U, even if U lied, I'll still believe in U. I want to believe what we had was real. Even though, it is hard to believe - it is also hard not to believe. I don't ask for your explanation. Once again, I just need to say that I miss U.

This 'I miss U' feeling is torturing me. It is like a chicken pox itch, very itchy but I can't scratch it. If I scratch, it will wounded my skin and leave a scar. I will hold the itch, let it be and it will be gone eventually..

I don't have an intention to compare my feeling to U to an itch. Sorry. I don't know a better comparison for it. Hehehe xP

Anyway, if U happen to read this post, just ignore it. Hopefully, the itch has gone at that time.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
8Nov09

What

2009-11-08T23:12:00.001+07:00

I just got home, saturday morning.. Couple hours before the sun rise.. A year ago, when I got home very early in the morning, it was because of my workload.

Today, I just got home and I think. What are people looking for in life?
Money? Praise from others? Love? Or what?...

Everybody want to be success in their life. Success in what? Earning money? Getting praise? Living with their love? Or what?

Everybody want to be happy. Is money make you happy? Is being praised make you happy? Is having someone you love make you happy?

What if you were working and earning lots of money but it does not make you happy? Is it a success?

What if you were being praised for something you do not like to do? Does it make you happy? Is it a success?

What if you were married to someone you love but it complicate your life? Does it make you happy? Is it a success?

What is the meaning of success?

What is the meaning of happiness?

Is it being able to accept. what we have in life? Is it a success?

Is it be happy what we have in life? Is it a happiness?

...

Peace Takecare Goodluck
Eruma
6-7 Nov 09

unemployed = menganggur

2009-10-14T17:09:00.004+07:00

Nama saya Erma. Saya sudah hampir 6 bulan menganggur,, actually I prefer called it I'm in my "sabbatical break" since I never have an actual break since kindergarten..

Pre Kindergarten - Kindergarten - Elementary School - Junior High School - Senior High School - Law School - Design Course - Work - breeeaakk, next I dont know what...

Anyway, what i've learned so far.. saya tidak sepenuhnya menganggur.. sekarang saya bisa melakukan hal-hal yang tidak bisa saya lakukan sebelumnya, terutama saat bekerja..

Maybe it is the right time for me to take a break so I can do other things that I cannot do before :)

I can take more pictures, go to places I've never been to, experiencing spiritual journey, play with Sipus and be in a right place when my friend need me.. priceless..

I'm grateful with this break.. but I'm not grateful enough if I just being lazy all the time while there is an important thing that I should do..

Dear God,

I am sorry, not being grateful enough for this precious break. I am not doing things that I should do. I turn into a couch potato instead of doing something that I really should do. Now the deadline is near and I have not finished it. I know it is my fault because I lost my hope just for a chessy reason. Please forgive me and help me find my hope and finish this.

Ameen...

a reminder for myself... Erma.. word more less fb! huff,,,

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
141009

Place of the truth

2009-10-01T22:52:00.002+07:00

Some people choose to express their feelings in facebook or twitter. For me, the best place to express my feelings is here.

Today, my best friend asks me how long does it take to get over a broken heart.. To be honest I think it will take forever, since after over a year in a silent phase I still struggling with my not so healthy heart.

That is my honest response but I lied. I told her that her heart will get better soon. I want her to feel better and have her relationship repaired (I'm not sure if it is the right word for a relationship.. Huff wtf..).

Sorry neng, saya abul hehehe xP I just want you to be happy and back on track.. I know it will be hard for you to lose someone in this way -- the way with a damage in your heart -- I believe both of you can find the best way to cope with this situation and upgrade your relationship into a better ship for both of you. So you can sail thru the sea of love happily ever after..

Goodluck Oy :)

Peace Takecare Goodluck
Erma
1octo9

"Love is so short, forgetting is so long." From the poem 'Tonight I Can Write - Pablo Neruda.

U are not a disease

2009-09-02T08:30:00.002+07:00

Siapakah kita bisa menyalahkan atau membenarkan

2009-08-30T02:14:00.003+07:00

Siapakah kita..

Bukan Tuhan.. Bukan yang dapat menyalahkan atau membenarkan suatu pilihan hidup.

Kita hanyalah manusia yang dapat berspekulasi apa yang sekiranya mungkin benar atau tidak.

Kalau kami memilih untuk berteman daripada berkompetisi lalu memilih untuk saling mendukung daripada saling menjatuhkan di suatu institusi yang membayar kami untuk jadi pekerja, apakah kami salah? Padahal kami tetap bekerja.

Kalau kami memilih untuk mempunyai rasa kebersamaan daripada rasa ingin menang sendiri di dalam suatu lingkungan yang kompetitif, apakah kami salah? Padahal kami tidak merugikan.

Kami bukan pihak yang berhak membenarkan tindakan kami.

Tapi..

Kalian juga bukan pihak yang berhak menyalahkan tindakan kami.

Karena..

Salah atau Benar itu milik Sang Maha.

Kalau..

Kalian menyalahkan kami karena uang.

Berarti..

Uang adalah Sang Maha dari kalian.

Sekali lagi, saya (kami) tidak menyalahkan pernyataan diatas. Saya (kami) hanya berasumsi bahwa uang adalah penentu dari apa yang kalian lakukan.

Benar atau salah itu milik Tuhan, Sang Maha dari saya (kami).

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma
30aug2009

Cin(t)a dari sudut pandang Erma

2009-08-23T23:49:00.005+07:00

Cin(t)a adalah film yang menggambarkan kehidupan beragama di Indonesia - yang katanya berbeda-beda tetapi satu jua dan menceritakan suatu bentuk toleransi tingkat tinggi antar umat beragama.

Penggambaran kehidupan beragama di Indonesia yang beraneka ragam tetapi sarat konflik digambarkan dengan sangat rapi dan halus di film Cin(t)a ini. Pembalutan cerita dengan cara romantisme dengan skenario yang mengandung makna yang lebih luas daripada sekedar percintaan antar agama. Sekilas seperti film romantika dengan problema biasa tetapi sebenarnya di dalamnya terkandung penggambaran-penggambaran keadaan realita hidup beragama yang beragam di Indonesia. Tema yang tidak mudah untuk diangkat secara terang-terangan di dalam sebuah film.

Menyimak jauh lebih dalam cerita Cin(t)a ini terdapat penggambaran sebuah contoh toleransi tingkat tinggi antar umat beragama. Penceritaan dimana sesama umat beragama saling mencintai dan menghargai jalan hidup yang dipilih secara masing-masing. Tanpa menilai mana yang salah mana yang benar. Sebuah penggambaran toleransi tingkat tinggi yang sering kali diajarkan di sekolah-sekolah tetapi sulit untuk dilakukan oleh sebagian masyarakat Indonesia yang beragam.

Bagi saya film ini sungguh brilliant. Jalan ceritanya pun sangat realistis dan menggambarkan apa yang sebenarnya terjadi di dalam pasangan antar agama. Bukan cerita film yang menjual mimpi dan berlebihan, melainkan menceritakan sisi-sisi yang jarang tersentuh dengan cara yang sangat wajar dan nyata.

Cin(t)a dari sudut pandang Erma adalah sebuah film yang menggambarkan sesuatu yang biasa terjadi tetapi tidak pernah menjadi bahasan umum dengan dibalut dalam cerita romantika yang sangat rapi.

Cin(t)a dengan apik mengangkat tema keberagaman beragama di Indonesia yang sangat sensitif dalam balutan cerita cinta yang rapi dan mengandung makna yang jauh lebih dalam mengenai toleransi beragama dengan cara yang wajar dan nyata.

Bravo kepada semua pihak yang berperan dalam pembuatan dan penayangan film Cin(t)a.

Sangat cocok ditonton sesaat setelah perayaan kemerdekaan Republik Indonesia, untuk mengingat nilai-nilai pentingnya menjaga persatuan sebagai suatu bangsa.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
23Aug2009

Mengeluh

2009-08-20T15:39:00.001+07:00

Setelah dibaca-baca dan dibaca-baca lagi... sepertinya saya terlalu banyak mengeluh.. Tuhan maafkan saya ya..

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma

She changes her nails' color

2009-08-18T20:37:00.002+07:00

She changes her nails' color

... Let see, will she be able to overcome her problem and boost her mood and have a successful gig? ...

Yes, miraculously she was able to overcome her problem and boost her mood and have a quite good gig. Not bad for a first performance.

Not because she has painted her nails black but because she is surrounded by nice people. They are fabulous artist (not that kind of artis sinetron ya..) Real Seniman.

Meskipun begitu she still feels a lil bit sad. She feels that she needs to write a letter, one last letter regarding the previous problem and others.

Will she write the letter? Will she has the guts to send him the letter?

Anyway, she has learned something today. Keeping positive vibes is a must and good people bring good vibes. It is good for your not so healthy heart. :)

Thank you to all people I met today (160809), you are ointments for my wounded heart.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
17Agustus09
Happy bday Indonesia

A girl with red nails

2009-08-15T23:47:00.004+07:00

a girl with red nails

She will play in a gig tomorrow.

She should set her mood in positive vibe tonight. But something bothers her mind.

Maybe it's a test. Whether she could overcome the "thing" or not.

Maybe it's a punishment. She has violated her own promise, not to fall in love, again.

She knows that love will only bring sadness and uneraseable memories. She has failed to block her heart. So stupid. Not a clever move.

Now, she is watching one of her fave tv series instead setting her mood into a good condition.

Flight of the concords, the one with Jemaine Clement in it. Even though she knows he reminds her of her past love with uneraseable memories. Another not so clever move.

"I will change the color of my nails, maybe it will boost my mood" she said.

Let see, will she be able to overcome her problem and boost her mood and have a successful gig?

Peace-Takecare-Goodluck
Mohon doanya yaaap..
Erma
15 aug 2009

A girl with shining toes

2009-08-15T23:42:00.004+07:00

She wants to sing with u, too bad she sings in a different key..
Both of you are singing in two different keys.

She wants to meet u, too bad she walks in a different way..
Both of you are walking in two different ways.

U don't think she really wants to sing and meet u..
"Why on earth she sings in a different key?"

Peace-Takecare-Goodluck
Erma
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Sesuatu yang harus diketahui dan tidak

2009-08-10T01:21:00.003+07:00

Ada sesuatu yang harus diketahui tapi tidak semua hal harus diketahui.

Ada sesuatu yang kamu pikir harus diketahui tapi ada juga yang kamu pikir tidak harus diketahui.

Ada sesuatu yang kamu pikir kamu tahu dan ada juga sesuatu yang kamu pikir tidak tahu.

Terkadang saya membuat ribet hidup saya dengan berpikir mengetahui sesuatu, berusaha mengetahui sesuatu dan mengetahui sesuatu.

Mungkin saja saya sebenarnya tidak tahu, tidak bisa tahu atau memang tidak mau tahu.

Harusnya tidak perlu mempersulit hidup dengan mengetahui sesuatu atau berpikir mengetahui sesuatu.

Tahu atau tidak tahu yang penting harusnya tahu mau mengetahui apa dan harus bagaimana.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
10 aug 09

We are not flower bouquet catcher girls

2009-08-10T01:19:00.003+07:00

At a wedding party..

When all single girls were trying to catch the bouquet, we just stood still near the dessert table.

It was simply because we are not flower bouquet catcher girls.

There are some particular reasons, from a common reason namely "afraid of commitment" to personal reasons such as "I don't have a boyfriend, why should I try to catch it, it just give me a sham hope", "I don't really think to get married soon", "my boyfriend does not think about our future, why should I try to catch it and force him to marry me" and "it is a silly superstitious".

The bottom line is right now we are not the flower bouquet catcher girls, maybe next wed party we will try to catch it.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
10 aug 2009

Part 1 - Fish and Bird

2009-08-10T01:16:00.003+07:00

...

Let me tell you a story about Fish and Bird...

A fish falls in love with a bird. The fish swims in sea surface to get closer with the bird.

The bird has the same feeling. In order to see the fish, the bird flies low.

They are happy. The fish doesn't mind swimming in the surface and the bird doesn't mind flying low. These are not easy for neither both of them but they doesn't mind at all.

Sayangnya ga semua orang bisa jadi ikan yang baik atau burung yang baik.

...

So it was a lie, then goodbye.

2009-07-13T23:58:00.002+07:00

It is not because U are now in a relationship, it has nothing to do with me..

It is because U were lie to me. U should have not said something that U were not really feel to me..

Why U let me feel that what we had for years were real?

Why?

U should not have done that U know.. U shouldn't..

If U don't love me all these years why don't U say so. It won't hurt me back then. It hurts now, when I hear it from someone else.

I really really disappointed to. U and myself for letting this happen.

It is time to let U go. Thank you for making this easier and harder at the same time.

Do U know, if you just told me this at the first place, I wouldn't have to face this again right know. Good for U, U don't have to face this shit, right?! Just like your name... So Lucky.

NoPeace-Goodluck-takecare tonite

Erma

Mengingatmu menyesakkan dada

2009-07-05T12:29:00.002+07:00

I'm trapped in my own feeling.

Try to get rid of it but everything remind me of U again and again and again...

U are far from everything, it will be easier for U to forget, nothing will remind U of me.

U won't hear your friends talking about me, asking about me, your friends do not even know me.

U won't go to places that we used to go since U are far.

Here, my friends are your friends, even my own friends know U. They are talking about U, asking about U.

No matter how hard I try to avoid to go to places that remind me of U, it still can't be done, since Jakarta is small, where ever I go I see those places.

U won't hear "gimana Erma?" or "kmrn g chatting sm Erma" or "kenal si ini ga? itu temennya Erma" or "lo masih berhubungan sm Erma ga?"

In the contrary,

I often hear that kind of stuff and the worst part is I don't have a job, I can't keep myself busy.

I know it's not your fault, maybe it's my fault because I can't keep myself busy or keep my mind occupied by something else other than U.

But still, at least U don't have someone that will ask U about me.

It's kinda unfair, I think.

Anyway, maybe I'm too much on this, I'm not suppose to think about U. But I still need to write something down to mengurangi rasa sesak di dada.

Ya, that is my sole purpose untuk mengurangi rasa sesak didada karena mengingatmu yang mana seharusnya tidak mengingatmu.

PS: dear my beloved friends, if you happen to read this post I hope you can understand why I don't want to hear about him anymore. And it is not easy, please understand. Thank you ☺.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck

Erma

5July2009

Kenapa Begini Kenapa Begitu

2009-07-05T12:25:00.002+07:00

Karena hidup ini lebih baik begini daripada begitu.

Kenapa?

Karena sudah begitu seharusnya.

Tapi kenapa?

Karena masa depan bukan untuk dilihat sekarang,"tidak ada yang tahu apa yang akan dibawa ombak besok." (Quote from Castaway Movie)

Lalu kenapa?

"Karena seharusnya sejak bangun sudah siap menghadapi apapun dan menjalani apapun." (Quote from Mama)

Kenapa?

"Karena didunia ini ada sesuatu yang tidak bisa diubah dan bisa diubah."(Quote from Papa)

Kenapa?

Karena manusia hidup dan harus beradaptasi. Menerima keadaan yang tidak bisa diubah dan mengubah yang bisa diubah menjadi lebih baik untuk semua.

Kenapa?

Karena manusia hidup bersama-sama. Jadi harus lebih baik untuk semua.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
2July2009

Elegy of a jobless woman

2009-06-15T19:17:00.002+07:00

She was walking in straight path with green paper flowing in her right and left side, the paper was flowing easily to her pocket while she worked her ass night and day.

The paper made her forget a pain that was growing in her thin skeleton, a darkness that was covering her red bold heart.

The paper was such a powerful 'thin stuff' that can change a bright colorful sky into a dark cloudy sky, a sincere smile to a cynical look.

...Too bad she did not realize how powerful the paper was..

Yes it IS TRUE the paper can bring smile and happiness IF the paper come alone not with the greedy.

But it was not easy to get rid of the greedy from the paper, usually they came in one nice package that no one can resist, including her.

Now, she is in an intersection, the straight path with flowing paper is ended. She needs to choose her new path. Is it the one with another flowing paper? Will the greedy comes too?

Things that she learns from her previous paths are

"Money can change people"

"Sometimes money is not everything"

"Money cannot buy her a healthy body, true friends, a smile and a good laugh"

and the most important is

"Money cannot buy her a new ass if her job eat all her ass"
... hhmm probably it can buy her the artificial one but not the real one ...

One thing for sure, she does not want an artificial butt. Do you?

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
14o62009

The Package

2009-04-10T12:13:00.002+07:00

Theoretically, if you want something - you pray - you do your best effort - insya Allah you will get it.

Practically, sometimes when you want something - you just say it over and over again - no pray - no effort - but insist in getting it.

You might think that a realization of your wish may come in a nice cute package and you will be live happily ever after with it. Which is possible.

Other possibility is it may come in a shocking and not so cute package.

But either it come in a whatever package it is still what you are wish for.

So does not matter what the packaging is, what important is you get what you wish for. Maybe it is best for you if it come in a shocking package not in a cute nice one. It is God ways and God knows what best for you.

In my case, I always wish for a fabulous journey that can help me get over my past - sort of a life changing journey.

And I got it.

Means that when I pray and God gave it to me.

It may not come in the cutest package, but I got my journey and it was a life changing journey.

I was flying on a plane to my destination, when suddenly the plane dropped. I felt that the plane was going down without any control, stuffs were flying, people were screaming, calling help from God.

I thought "this is it". At that time, all picture of my previous life was passing fast in my head. And I realized that life is too short and I cannot tied up with my past.

I must move on. - if I can landed safely.

Now, here I am in my home writing this note to remind me what have happened and what I must do in the future.

I am very glad, knowing that the life changing experience was the answer for my wish.

The answer from God. It may not come it a cute nice package but I like it. God is nice, Alhamdulillah.

So, maybe a realization of your wish may not come in a certain way that you have expected. But, there is always something behind everything. We just need to figure it out and bersyukur - be glad with everything.

Peace takecare goodluck
Erma

Heartless Jester

2009-03-30T00:29:00.001+07:00

The Jester is playing heartless

Should the Jester plays with heart?

He/she is a Jester, not a spade or diamond.

Jester is colorless, not red or black.

So should the Jester plays with heart?

Jester,
Erma

The Shoe

2009-03-30T00:26:00.001+07:00

There is a slight difference between "I DO NOT WANT" and "I CAN NOT".

If you see a shoe in a mall, you want it but if you buy it you will be broke. Broke as if you will need to eat instant noodle for like more than a month.

What will you call it? You do not want the shoe OR You can not buy the shoe.

You have money to buy the shoe but you need to fulfill your daily necessities. It is not like you don't have the money, you have it but you will need to choose whether you going to spend it in the shoe.

The shoe is the best shoe you have ever met. Comfortable and fit perfectly. It comes in your size and only one pair left. You believe that the shoe is the most perfect shoe and it is hard to find a perfect shoe.

What is it then?

From your perspective you call it > I CAN NOT buy the shoe.

But the shoe perspective > You DO NOT WANT buy the shoe.

The shoe does not have to understand it. No matter how hard you try to explain "why" the shoe paradigm is still you do not want the shoe. The shoe thinks that if you really like something you must buy it.

The shoe paradim could make you mad or sad or whatever.
Actually you do not have to get mad or sad just because you can not find a right explanation for the shoe.

The shoe has a right to think that you do not want it because you have the money but do not want to buy it. The shoe does not have to know what kind of sacrifices you need to take just to buy the shoe. Because the shoe does not want to hear "I really like you but I can not have you". Words that the shoe really wants to hear is "Sorry, I can not have you". That is enough.

Even though it is hard for you to say it but it is the best line that you can say to the best shoe you have ever met.
What you can do now are say the line, release the shoe and continue your life.

It is never been easy.

But in relation to your life, you CAN DO it.

PeaceTakecareGoodluck
Erma
27march2009

weird

2009-03-13T02:21:00.002+07:00

It is so weird that I still have same feeling like I felt 10 years ago. I was 14 and you were almost 16 at that time. I really like you back then, guess what I still like you now. Maybe tomorrow and days after I will have the same old feeling.

Maybe...

Maybe not...

Confession of a workaholic

2009-02-07T14:25:00.000+07:00

If u think I like to work till late at nite because:

1. I try to impress my bosses; or

2. I try to collect more billable hours; or

3. I try to get more bonus; or

4. I love my job (yearite); or

5. I am too stupid to refuse assignments; or

6. My bosses force me to finish my job rightaway; or

7. My clients are so freaking demanding; or

8. I don't have anyone to help; or

9. I am a trainee; or

10. ....................... (Please fill the blank space).

The truth is I just try to get away from something.

How about you?
Why u work till late at nite?

PeaceGoodluckTakecare
Eruma

Selamat Tahun Baru 2009

2009-01-02T22:21:00.003+07:00

Selamat Tahun Baru 2009 = selamat kita masih diberikan waktu untuk sampai di 2009.

Semoga semua cita-cita dan keinginan dan apapun itu terkabul di 2009.

Ameeennn Qobul QobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobul........

Kalau saya ingin bahagia dan senang di 2009 dan seterusnya....

Ameeennn Qobul QobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobulQobul........

hehehe xP

piss*takecare*goodluck
Erma :)

lampau

2008-12-14T21:47:00.004+07:00

Kata seorang sahabat seruangan, banjiri - seberangi - bakar.. (sebetulnya kalau ditulis dgn b.ing akan terbaca lbh keren, tapi saya suka dgn kata-kata versi Indonesia nya)

Untuk mencapai tahap bakar, nampak sulit..

Setelah ditangisi seada-adanya dan setelah berapa lama diseberangi tapi selalu ada keinginan untuk menyebrang kembali dan menangis lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi.

Lalu setelah puas menangis untuk kesekian kali, menyeberang lagi dan berjalan lagi, kali ini lebih jauh dari sebelumnya.

Tetapi ketika ada turunan, selalu kembali ke seberang, saat sudah surut ditangisi lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi.

Setelah lelah mau sampai kapan terus begini, berjalanlah ke seberang lagi. Kali ini berlari lebih kencang agar semakin jauh, jauh, jauh dan jauh.

Semakin jauh berlari semakin ingin kembali, sekali lagi dan kali ini yang terakhir. Kembali ke seberang bukan karena turunan, tapi ingin hati.

Hati terpuaskan untuk kesekian kali, kali, kali dan kali. Setiap pergi menyeberangi pasti ingin kembali lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi.

Sebenarnya tidak ada yang dicari, dan tidak ada yang lebih baik. Jadi sampai kapan mau begini. Terhenti dan berhenti. Berjalan, berlari, kalau nanti kembali lagi sama saja berhenti. Seperti jalan ditempat lalu mundur, mundur, mundur dan mundur.

Kalau mau memilih jalan ditempat dan mundur kembali keseberang lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi. Tidak akan berhenti untuk kembali. Dan pedihnya akan terulang, lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi.

Tidak ada yang tidak sulit di benda bulat yang berputar ini. Kali ini maju ke depan ambil yang dibutuhkan kembali ke belakang, jangan sebrangi, dan bakar.

Whusss...

Kali ini tidak ada alasan untuk keseberang lagi, jembatannya sudah terbakar. Tidak ada kembali lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi. Hanya maju kedepan lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi.

Piss-takecare-goodluck
*Eruma*

Young, Single, Fee Earner

2008-11-23T22:39:00.002+07:00

once you become one of them, people will see you as a young-single-fee earner.
not as you...

*huh*

kosong

2008-10-19T19:59:00.003+07:00

[kosong]

*tidak bisa berkata apa-apa*

Urutan

2008-10-12T03:47:00.002+07:00

Barusan terlintas kenapa ada urutan

1 - 2 - 3 dst
Kepala - Badan - Kaki

karena apa yang ada di awal bisa di tengah dan akhir,

tapi apa yang di tengah dan akhir tidak bisa di awal..

seperti sabun untuk muka bisa untuk badan dan kaki,

tapi sabun kaki agak aneh kalau dipakai untuk muka..

hehehe xP
aneh ya..
saya yang aneh,
pisstakecaregoodluck
Erma :)

a picture worth thousand words, two worth more words...

2008-10-12T02:15:00.004+07:00

Me,

Regards,
Erma

a week after

2008-09-14T22:50:00.001+07:00

..missing u..

a r

2008-09-08T23:55:00.000+07:00

as requested,,

withot yo

2008-09-08T00:10:00.003+07:00

witho*t yo*

there will be no s*n, to brighten *p my so*l

no h*gs to cheer me *p

no la*ghs, no colo*rs, no f*n, no so*nds in my heart...

.j*st n*mb.

x,(
-feeling terribly bl*e-

this is it,

2008-09-07T19:39:00.000+07:00

.......

pilih

2008-08-31T16:41:00.001+07:00

pilih :

mengatakan yang sebenarnya tidak ingin dikatakan

atau

mendengar sesuatu yang tidak ingin didengar

pilih.

young single fee earner

2008-07-20T10:33:00.003+07:00

young single fee earners

full of cash
life is a mess

cynical laugh
less love

..........
no social life

.........
no time

........
your own dog barks at you

......
rarely meet your house mate

......
weeeeeiirrrrdddddd

how easy we find badness in others and how hard we realize that we actually not that good

2008-06-20T00:37:00.003+07:00

...kemarin...

saya berbicara tentang pemberi kerja yang kaku seperti robot, meski bertatap temu papasan tiada reaksi sedikit pun

hari ini adik saya menegur saya terlalu kaku kepada orang-orang rumah

padahal saya ga ngerasa gitu,, cuma cape aja kerja pagi pulang pagi,, yaa mungkin itu juga sih yang dirasakan pemberi kerja saya..

kadang-kadang kita harus mengerti dan introspeksi...
bukan membenci dan menghakimi..

peace-love-take care

eruma

dan saya harus memperbaiki kelakuan saya....

Kisah USB berwarna Merah

2008-06-10T01:42:00.004+07:00

Hari Senin.

Hari terakhir data room dibuka.

USB Merah = data penting yang ga ada back up nya.

Pagi-pagi berangkat kekantor, tiba-tiba usb merah ga ada di tas, trus telpon temen yang di kantor ga ada juga... balik lagi kerumah nyari tapi ga ada juga...

Mau nangis tapi ko percuma,lalu memohon kepada Tuhan, mohon tunjukkan usb merah saya,, i'll trade it with everything...

at that point saya merasa selama ini suka merepotkan hal-hal yang not that important and not that urgent..seperti masalah hati.. mungkin masalah hati itu penting, tapi pada saat itu saya bisa lebih memilih ga ketemu yang ditunggu hati (it refer to specific subject, but i wont tell hehehe xP ) dari pada kehilangan usb merah.

kenapa usb merah ini terdengar penting banget? because it is really important and urgent (means really really important). isinya data" perusahaan yang diaudit selama sekian bulan dan hari itu adalah hari terakhir audit dan data" tersebut belum saya save di komputer untuk beberapa minggu. Dan udah mau filing (= deadline) pula, ga lucu banget kalo ilang dan data" jd ga lengkap.

anywaysss.. saya ga tau ini apakah ini pertanda i put my job first or else... yang saya tau ini seperti teguran untuk saya kalau masiiiii banyak hal yang penting dalam hidup ini.

maybe you cant have it all tapi you can always accept it all and make it beautiful than own it.. (ini apa ya maksudnya? jadi bingung..)

intinya sih erma kamu jangan memusingkan hal yang kecil kalo ada hal lain yang lebih besar yang harus dipusingkan..

tapi baiknya sih ga usah pusing untuk semua, iya ga? hehehe xP

btw akhirnya setelah memohon dan termenung sejenak tiba" usb merahnya ketemu di dalem tas..

takecarey'all

*eruma*

getting married

2008-04-25T15:56:00.001+07:00

sometimes it sounds like a scary concept...

hahaha xD i just dont know why but it sounds scary sometimes..

mungkin kalo nikahnya bukan sama yang diinginkan kali yaa...

kebanyakan wanita berumur mid20ies pasti sering banget denger pertanyaan "kapan nikah" apalagi kalo udah lulus kuliah dan udah kerja (*curcol*).. harus ya nanya gitu...

kenapa ga nanya "udah punya pacar belum? kalo belum mau Tante kenalin sama anak Tante, ganteng lhoo, single lagi, pengertian dan tidak sombong.."

mungkin karena tuh Tante" yang nanya ga mau besanan sama Mak gua, atau anaknya udah punya pacar atau mungkin anaknya cewe semua atau anaknya ga suka cewe...

btw emang nikah harus sama yang diinginkan ya? iya sih.. iya kali ya.. ga tau deh belum nikah sijh... hehehe xP

Congrats for your weds my friends <-- buat teman" saya yang sudah nikahan ada Keyong, Mie", Ticha dan barusan Ayank...

piss
eruma

kadang-kadang

2008-04-20T22:41:00.002+07:00

20 april 2008

kadang-kadang yang diinginkan itu tidak seindah waktu masih dibayangkan..

kadang-kadang yang dibayangkan yang sudah menjadi kenyataan harus tetap diusahakan..

kadang-kadang kalau impian tercapai itu bukan selesai..

itu baru mulai..

dan pada setiap permulaan tidak ada yang sangat mudah..

bertahan sajalah eruma..

*peacetakecareandgoodluck*

*eruma*

just like he said

2008-02-18T23:21:00.004+07:00

kata mas penyiar radio 88.0 .... yang kamu lakukan hanya memperpanjang jalan buntu, tapi kalau bisa menjebol temboknya ya silahkan dilanjutkan, kalau tidak yaaa hanya memperpanjang jalan buntu saja....

sepesial buat teman saya yang rumahnya deket turunan terjal,, buat saya juga sih.. hehehe xP

buat starship shooters... sure revenge is nice but just make sure it is not something that you'll regret someday, key...

peace
*eruma*