proposal

this is weird really really weird...

what if someone - who is not your boyfriend - who never has love history with you ... propose you to marry him..

and he is just not asking for you to be his girlfriend but to be his lifetime partner...

it so freaking weird..

I have several male friends, who have girlfriends for years, and have not propose their girlfriends,, because of many reasons.. from the cheesy one to the fundamental one..

and now.. he is like someone from your high school, who is barely know you and now ask you to marry him.. it is so freaking crazy,,

it is my third time i heard a man proposes to me..

the answer was clear when someone, who i love but i cannot have, proposed me...

the answer was clear when a drunk man, who has a girlfriend, proposed me...

and the answer is not really clear when a man, who come after i pray to God, propose me... and yet he is very sure on his decision to spend his lifetime with me in the world and the afterlife a.k.a dunia akhirat..

...

this is so weird, i am just about to finish my previous blog on marriage, and suddenly a proposal pops up.. so crazy huh...

and yes, he has curly hair and previously he had a girlfriend from different religion.. ~ it is almost the criteria.. so that he will understand what i am going through...

i don't know what to do... looking for a husband is definitely not one of my plans for this week -_-

and i actually just about to write about two fairies in my world that took me to concerts that open my eyes and not to be lampau too long and how those concerts gave me signs.. thanks to Monica Sinaga and Andina Chaniago,,

i still remember when Monica Sinaga said "everything is worth trying" - "there is nothing that is not worth trying"

and i said to myself "is it worth trying? - even though it has a risk... a risk that he could be the one who will become my husband..."

fukkk it is so weird and my family and his family have made it so idontknowwhattowrite -_-

Oooo thou.. why thou have to make it harder with your persistence???????? why?!

are you sure?? really??

i never let a man pick me up and take me anywhere before... because i can do it myself and i dont know why i let you to do that.. -_-

and you just say lightly that it is God's hand that bring us together... i am speechless..

let see how far will you go... hmmmm... thank you for the red rose........

*i wish this was only a dream, i'll wake up and everything never happen*