what a weekend,,

now i know how does it feel wearing high heel all day long...

now i see with my own eyes how brutal people in jakarta drives their cars...

now i realize yogya's people are really really nice... i really meant it...

now i understand there are more problem in this world that harder than just a simple broke up..

but still, i cry over this pity shit, again and again... what a stupid me... cry over a broken love,,

love SHIT!
yes, it DOES makes me weak... i should've read what i wrote long time ago in this blog about how to deal w/ broken heart, but i just felt really freaking fucked up and didnt have some courage to apply it rite now... its not that easy when it gets back to yourself... i used to tell peeps how to handle with broken relationship and so on... but now, i just....... i just dont know,,,

there are lots of bigger and depper problems in life rather than stupid love problems,, and YES i DO realize it long loongg looonggg time ago,, but now, i just dont know why on earth i couldnt get my self back together after my last broke up

(yes, he dumped me, i used to do all the breakups in our relationship before, and he always asked 4 more chance and i always gave it,, but when he dumped me because unreasonable reason; ''he said that i'm not serious enuff'',, he didnt give me another chance,, and long story short, now i know that he has another girl)

and last weekend, when i went out of town for my cousin wedding, i stopped by at periplus and bought this cute book (the cover was so cute, i might use it as my inspiration for my next project hehehe xP). the book is about broken-up and how we should deal with it and change it into break-over, i just hope it'll work for me,,

but it just not that easy, dealing with all d stuff that have been happening even it seems really easy to handle....

what a life.....

what a weekend....


...and up until now i still keep saying to myself: "sudahlah erma sudahlah,, c'mon......." and i still try to get over it as soon as posible... just wish me luck okei...

and one more thing, at the end i DO really understand what this quotation mean "you never realize what you have until you lost it"...