maybe you have to feel almost die first b4 get stronger..

i hate when i feel something inside and it makes my tears melt, in a pethatic way, it do hurts a lot...

i just wondering when will all this annoying feeling gone....

and by the time goes by,, while i try to enjoy this pain, there is something in my mind, i am afraid,, i do feel afraid to fall in love again...
especially with someone that i know i will never ever be with him..

i knew that i should've be able to deal with this kind of stuff, but now i realize that it just not as easy as it seems..

love do makes me weak,, i hate it,, i have to be stronger... for my own sake, either i get killed or get stronger...

at the end i choose to be stronger... even i have to feel almost die first.......